Long Island-based alt-soul artist Bobby Chucka premiered his debut album “ctrl – alt – acpt” via Facebook Live on Nov. 1.
Over 5,000 users viewed the Facebook Live stream as they were audibly taken to a unique realm of music that had been two and half years in the making. On Nov. 25, the album was made available for purchase on Chucka’s website.
“Ctrl – alt – acpt” is a 26-track, hour-long sonic quest for acceptance as Chucka, a 2015 Oswego State graduate, crafts a complicated debut album to correspond with his complicated mind. The music is a canvas he utilizes to paint the many layers of his ever-evolving personality.
“I change shapes a lot, but not for you, I feel like water,” Chucka raps on the hook for the confident thumper “like water” which houses the album’s only feature in Chicago-based rapper Mick Jenkins.
The line in the album’s third track serves as a bit of foreshadowing for the listener. Throughout the album, Chucka ventures through a perpetual identity crisis with emotions constantly fluctuating between bursts of pleasure seen on “baby cakes” and episodes of melancholy on “quiet down.”
“The album was mostly about existence, or my small slice of existence and all the things that happen in it, good and bad,” Chucka said. “I wanted to be as honest and authentic as I could be, so I tried to use every element of the album to paint a picture of my current life.”
The concept of existence is explored through a prolonged conversation between Chucka and a close female friend. like Chucka, the friend finds it increasingly difficult to balance and understand her emotions and thoughts. The incredibly disjointed, yet insightful, conversation features discussions about death, failed relationships and the desire to creatively “express myself.” The intimacy sees Chucka shed his musical persona and allows himself to purely be Rob Dezendorf.
“The problem wasn’t that I didn’t know who I was, the problem was I thought I was something. And I’m not. I’m everything,” Chucka said in “talk 4.”
In March 2014, Chucka released his first project, “The Blue Tape” a nine-track mixtape that spent a year in production. “The Blue Tape” was an impressive arrival for Chucka in the hip-hop genre, as great strides were made in production on tracks such as “Real Boy RealEyes” “Am I Right?” and “We Comin’ After You.”
Two and a half years separate “The Blue Tape” from “ctrl – alt – acpt.” His days as the college boy party-hopper are gone, as he is the graduate invested in an ultra-focused lifestyle. Chucka’s maturation resonates on “ctrl – alt – acpt” both lyrically and sonically as a result. It is easier to classify this as a hip-hop album, although it would undermine Chucka’s exceptional production. This is an experimental alt-soul album that fuses influences of electronica, neo-soul, nu-jazz, R&B and trip hop.
The sounds crafted are hauntingly captivating through their detached nature. Tracks like “ghost ride” and “alright alone” have more in common with the eccentric sounds of alternative groups Radiohead and Glass Animals than they do with any modern hip-hop act.
Then there is the more sensual and intimate song “overgrown,” a downbeat sedated love song, which would make the likes of Erykah Badu smile.
“I just want to stay at home, kick the covers on/Play your favorite song, while we’re making love,” Chucka sings in a sultry state on “overgrown.”
“‘Control, alter, accept’ is what [the album’s title] stands for,” Chucka said. “After a lot of therapy, I learned that I had been dealing with most of my frustrations in life, in three stages. First, I was trying to control the situation… Second, I was trying to [alter] the situation… And lastly, my only option to ease my frustration and be at peace, was to accept my life for what it was and roll with it.”
The accept stage takes form at the back-end of the album, namely on the emotional ballad “4 u” dedicated to his late mother.
“When I sing about you, no one to reach out to/Living life without you, heartache told me how to/Heal myself,” Chucka sings in a somber, reflective voice as this track is where he is able to form his most completed set of thoughts on the album. In many ways, the track is both therapeutic and revelatory.
“Music has always been therapy for me and I hope that’s what this is for the people who need it,” Chucka said. “Throughout the whole process my main goal was to think as little as possible and record only during bursts of creativity when I felt present in my thoughts. I also wanted to show people that it’s ok to be honest about yourself, even if it’s a little shocking. Our flaws are what make us interesting.”
“Ctrl – alt – acpt” is an ambitiously crafted, discombobulated work in progress, like Chucka himself. The album feels incomplete for the album is very artistically jumbled. Yet this is forgiven for the authenticity Chucka brings, noting that this is nothing more than the complex beginning to an intriguing journey.